Untitled Problem Poem: An Epic Poem told by your average bad,small town schoolgirl (Who also happens to be hopelessly in love with someone she’ll never have) ( 1st week of the 2nd 6wks weekly blog post)

*Note:In this poem there are pieces of prior poems put in and selected carefully. The titles include: UR my Universe,Love is a Battlefield, Love Kills Slowly, I’m your only victim, Turn Back Time, Our Story, Love,War, and Gore, When I…, Strikes 123, And She Learned,and After Class. Some of the lines were slightly altered to fit this poem* 

I want you to stare  ๐Ÿ‘

To do more than just care 

Although your caring persona has me smitten  ๐Ÿ˜

But the sour taste of hopeless love has bitten  ๐Ÿค•

I want you so bad

I just wanna your all

I want to be allowed to hug and kiss you in the halls 

I’m not trying to be pushy  ๐Ÿ—ฃ

But my desire makes me feel mushy  

Why can’t this be easier?

Why is a band geek out of my league? 

Maybe ‘cuz he’s funny and quirky,  ๐Ÿ˜‚

Or maybe because he’s really nice. ๐Ÿ‘

But either way, I still love him  ๐Ÿ˜

Sometimes when he talks to that other girl  ๐Ÿ—ฃ๐Ÿ‘ฉ

I feel so dim ๐Ÿ˜•

She has makeup on  ๐Ÿ’„

That’s strike one, 2 more and I’m gone   1๏ธโƒฃ

She’s popular-ish and wears skinny jeans that fit  ๐Ÿ‘–

That’s strike two , this is gettin’ legit!   ๐Ÿ˜ฎ 2๏ธโƒฃ

She’s the complete opposite of me

That’s strike three! 3๏ธโƒฃ

I’m not dumb! 

I can see!   ๐Ÿ‘€

I’ll never get to do more than an accidental brushing of hands   

Its just he’s the one for me  

But I’m not the one for him 

My heart patters away. ๐Ÿ’“

At the sound of your name 

I wish this all could be a game  ๐ŸŽฎ

‘Cuz at least then there would be a chance of winning  ๐Ÿ™Œ

Instead I’m just a sad little girl  ๐Ÿ™Ž

Who’s head has been left in a whirl   ๐ŸŒช ๐ŸŒ€

 She’s used to being undesirable ๐Ÿ™…๐Ÿผโ€โ™‚๏ธ

Always left being the one without a date 

It’s never mattered much to her 

As much as other people might at this rate

She learned to be immune to silly boys    ๐Ÿ™…

No matter how cute or hot they may be  

Dating was always a no

Sometimes she felt it was a low  ๐Ÿ™

But she stayed on her feet  ๐Ÿ‘Ÿ

She learned to march to the beat ๐ŸŽต

Of not fallling in love ๐Ÿ™…

And of that she thought she was above   ๐Ÿ™„

But then her lovely, charming, band geek came waltzing into her life. ๐Ÿค“๐Ÿ˜

And now the only way to stop it 

Would be to use a very sharp knife   ๐Ÿ”ช

There is pain
 There is sorrow  

I just can’t wait to see him tomarrow

If it rains and floods   ๐ŸŒงโ›ˆ๐ŸŒง

I’ll have to wait,

And a hole in my heart    ๐Ÿ•ณ๐Ÿ’”

Will begin to form

And only he can close the gates  ๐Ÿ—๐Ÿ”‘๐Ÿ—

I love him so much it hurts  

I’d be broken and in a fatal position    ๐Ÿ’€๐Ÿ˜ต

Without him

He’s my downfall

 He’s my rising

He’s my everything…

When I need a shoulder to cry on   ๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ช

When I need a person to vent to. ๐Ÿ˜ก๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿ˜ก

When I need a good laugh  โ˜น๏ธ

Or to be cheered up  ๐Ÿ˜ฃ

Or a reason to smile  ๐Ÿ˜

All those millions of times

He’s been there    ๐Ÿ™‹โ€โ™‚๏ธ

He’ll always be there   ๐Ÿ˜Š

I couldn’t live without him

 I’d curl up and die

But I still can’t have him    ๐Ÿ˜ฏ

Even if I try

I can’t lie,

He makes me happy inside  ๐Ÿ‘Œ

He  may just be the love of my life

But I’m not his;

And I’ll never be

I’m not even going to get past the “oh geez”๐Ÿ—ฏ

I wish I could turn back time   ๐Ÿ”™โฐ

 To before I realized I love you

before regret stuck to me like glue   

Before I  wanted to change how I am

But now the pain hits me like like a ram  ๐Ÿ‘

 I just want a shot at holding your hand   โœ‹๐Ÿฝ

And now the taste of my bitter love

Is always as sour as the ever present tang of limes   ๐Ÿ‹

I can’t turn back time

Anymore than my heart’s state

As cold and as metal as a pile of dimes  ๐Ÿ’ฒ

I should be dead at this rate   โ˜ ๏ธ

No longer standing ๐Ÿ˜ต

Only your support and comforting words  ๐Ÿ˜Œ

Stop me from landing. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿฝ

Love is a battlefield   

a full out war   ๐Ÿšจ ๐Ÿ’ฃ ๐Ÿ”ซ

You can win  ๐Ÿ‘ฐ ๐Ÿ‘ฌ๐Ÿ‘ญ๐Ÿ‘ซ ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ™Œ 

Or you can get tore   ๐Ÿ’”

I know 

yes I do  

I know my love for you causes too much gore  

Yet  I can’t stop my loving

I can’t stop the feelings ๐Ÿ˜

I can’t cut them out  โœ‚๏ธ

I mean I’m already too close too dead  ๐Ÿฅ

Since I’m stuck to following this route   ๐Ÿš

Words and emotions dance in my head. ๐Ÿ’ƒ

But they may be dances of the near dead   ๐Ÿค•๐Ÿค’๐Ÿ˜ท๐Ÿ’€โ˜ ๏ธ๐Ÿ˜ต

Love is plaguing my head  ๐Ÿค’

 I’m just so much better off dead

Maybe I could just cleanly cut off my head   ๐Ÿ—ก

I mean, it would stop the thoughts!   ๐Ÿ’ญ๐Ÿ—ฏ๐Ÿ’ฌ๐Ÿ”š

You are my everything boy! 

Everything I can never have!

Everything I can only dream!   ๐Ÿ˜ด๐Ÿ’ค๐Ÿ›๐Ÿ›Œ

Can’t you see!

Your an apocalypse, and I’m your only victim!

I want there to be an us   ๐Ÿ’‘ 

I want to feel your touch   โœ‹๐Ÿฝ

But I’m really out of luck. 

This love I have to tuck  

Love is a slow killer

It’s a long and painful death

Piece by piece  it destroys you  โ›“

 Until there is nothing left  

This is our story  ๐Ÿ“–

here comes chapter 532  ๐Ÿ“

Cough,cough

We both know I’ve fallen too far in love with you

You are my universe ๐ŸŒŒ

You are my wish on that one sparkly star   ๐ŸŒ โ˜„๏ธ๐Ÿ’ซ๐ŸŒŸ

You orbit my heart  ๐Ÿ”

In your little blue oblivious spaceship  ๐Ÿš€

I wish we could get lost in space together sometime   ๐Ÿ”ญ

Because I know you’d help us survive 

Especially since you do it for me all the time  ๐Ÿ˜ณ

Your my personal rocket  ๐Ÿš€

That raises my spirits  ๐Ÿ”

Your fire erases my fears   โ™จ๏ธ

Sometimes you can bring me to tears  ๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ช๐Ÿ’ฆ๐Ÿ’ฆ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

I’ve been in love with you for a grand total of a little over one year  ๐Ÿ—“

I wish this all could go away

Everything but you ๐Ÿ™‹โ€โ™‚๏ธ

I wish I could be in love with someone else. ๐Ÿ‘ฅ

Someone who’s lack of love wouldn’t hurt so bad  ๐Ÿค•๐Ÿ˜•๐Ÿ˜”

I know I can never have you โ˜น๏ธ

I can never make you love me too ๐Ÿ˜โ˜น๏ธ

And I’m not very pleased  ๐Ÿ˜•

With you only as a best friend ๐Ÿ˜‘

But I hide this pain

 that is buried deep deep down โฌ‡๏ธ

But it makes me vulnerable all around

My abused heart keeps exploding  โœณ๏ธ

And splitting through the core ๐Ÿ’”

But  I keep bandaging it back up  ๐Ÿค•๐Ÿฅ

Because I’m forced to keep fighting my broken hearted war

There will be messy bloodshed

Raise your glass for the gore  ๐Ÿท๐Ÿท๐Ÿท

I just may be obssessed 

I just can’t help loving you too much to die

And never see you again ๐Ÿ’”

-keelythecynicalrejectblog 

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