when I’m with you
I feel disconnected from the world
like I have no clue where I am
Or like I could never find my way
to any place
That wasn’t next to you
Maybe just like I was lost
But at the very same time
I feel safe
And I feel like I’ve been joyfully reunited
with something that I’d oh so mournfully lost
And I feel filled with relief
I feel like I’m where I should be
Where I belong
Like I’m immune and safe to all dangers and unknown ways
And all issues and outside influences and meddlesome quarells
Like a small child
That was lost in a grocery store
Filled with people, sounds, and colors and chaos
That was found-
………..Is that the word?????
Do I actually feel FOUND?????
It’s like the world dissapears
Every speck of it
Every sound, sight, distance, or everything inbetween every last crook or cranny
Yet it’s like I’m the Queen of this very known world of mine
And I know where is what
And like I’ve found my way home
My own special spot in the world
The world I rule
Maybe your smile and care for me
Is what makes me feel on top of the world
And makes me feel found
And the bite and sting
For your lack of love for me
Makes me feel lost
But I don’t care much that I am lost
-But maybe that’s because I’m actually found
All I know is that
THis is just another of my questions thhat I hold on me and you
I’m the curious Alice
And your affect on me is the Mad Hatter
And the world I live in
Now that fate has led to you
and I have thristing questions:
Is this really love?
could you ever love me back?
am I obsessed?
What will I do if I ever find out if I’m obsessed?
Am I ever going to stop hurting?
is it hurting or heading?
for now that is,
AM I LOST OR FOUND?